hypocrisy

You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.
~ Matthew 7:5


Such a small yet strong and outstanding verse. Talking about not literally about a log or speck but the log or speck standing for sin or wrong doings.
Recently I have been in this situation.. except more on the receiving end of it all. I have been receiving unhealthy criticism from peers and I think it's something I'm struggling to keep inside, I get upset so easily about it all, when I know I should be ignoring it because God will handle and deal with that person later and it is not for me to sort out on my terms. I think we often deal with it publicly by gossiping or telling others etc, but lately I've found a healthy way of doing so, by writing out my thoughts with specific details in a diary or booklet which I make sure I keep away from the worlds peering eyes. It has help me reflect in my actions what I can do better if and when this situation comes up again.


Just some small thoughts for the week...


Besides that life is pretty swell at the moment. I've just redone my room, rearranged all my furniture, got a new drawer cupboard thing with a massive mirror which is awesome!! and I tidied up my cupboards, repainted my room purple with Brad and Miranda helped me draw cool drawings and swirlys around the edges and might I say that it looks mighty fine! LOVE having a purple room haha!! I'm just working on getting purple bed sheets and pillow cases hehe :) pretty exciting stuff.

I've also in the last week been really into making meringues :):) not just any sort, but chocolate with choc chip ones!! Woop I love them, though I don't think I've had that much sugar in a whole week before oops!! haha.. so far since last Wednesday I have managed to make 6 or 7 batches I'm pretty sure haha! They're just so easy to make and taste absolutely amazing!! I'm going to have to find a healthier thing to bake haha!! Maybe lemon curd cake?? haha suggestions anyone?

Anyways I'm off now :) toodles :)

tchan.

Adele

"So I won't let you close enough to hurt me no I won't ask you, you to just desert me, I can't give you the heart you think you gave me, It's time to say goodbye to turning tables."

So these lyrics by Adele have really been something, and I'm loving the song right now, so much so I learnt it on piano and started singing it, and I choreographed my own contemporary dance to it. Yeah who knew I could do contemporary dancing, but hey, hidden talents? haha.

Anyways I've been trying to discover exactly what these lyrics mean to me, my guess is that Adele wrote it in regards to a male:female relationship, and she's saying she's sick of changing and turning and twisting for this guy she's had a relationship and now it's over. I think in my life that these lyrics have resounded to me so much because I guess I've become so strong hearted about the fact that I don't want to let anyone but me run my life anymore. People's opinion's and ways have seemed to lately been able to sway me to certain decisions or affect me to feel a certain way. It also applies in that no longer will I let people who don't seem to want to be present in my life be present. If they leave they leave, I will try and push but it's like sometimes there's only so much we can do, we can only push so much, if people want to leave I'll let them leave, who am I to stop anyone.

In my life the only thing I have never had is consistency, I've never had someone around constantly and strongly consistent for more than 2 years or so, and I think being in a relationship with a guy where it has been so consistent and strong for a year and bit is so different yet so relieving and just such an amazing feeling!! But then there's 2 sides, I'm unable to share the joy with others because of judgments and opinions. But why should it matter, and that's why again these lyrics have stuck to me, I'm not going to fuss over what other people think anymore.

I'm set out to find consistency in my life, God is that consistency, he is always there and always waiting for us with arms wide open, and he'll never leave us or forsake us for any reason what so ever, so find peace comfort and love in our heavenly father!

Peace and love :) <3
tchan.

dance dance

So I went digging the other day and look what I pulled up...

Back in the days of dancin' from Tabitha Chan on Vimeo.

Hahaha it's the best!! Couldn't stop laughing!!!


Anyways the day:

Again pretty lonely at work just myself and Hannah in the office but she was out a lot taking classes. Did a lot of written up paper stuff and admin work. Oh well, it was a Friday, just glad the weekend's here. Aunty picked me up with my 2 gorgeous cousins and we went to doncaster to pick a frame for my grandparents 50th anniversary :):) hehe yay!

Then went over for dinner (noodles :)) and had youth, only had about 6 of my girls there tonight but it was still such an awesome night. Rodwell spoke about David, and it really spoke to me. With this whole AFL traineeship going on it just amazes me when I look back at my ENTER or ATAR score and how... you could say.. badly I did, I look now and what great things God has done with my life, and not even needing the score and how insignificant it is and how much greater and more powerful God is, and through him I can achieve anything, and who know where my passion for sport and teaching will lead me!! It's a great and amazing feeling!!

So anyways after youth popped over to safeway with Bek and Miranda grabbed a few nibblies and headed over to Kathy's, well Kathy's house sitting house.. if that makes sense haha. We (Kathy, Miranda, Bek, Jenny, Jordan, Natten, Nate, Brad and I) chilled and watched Tangled... GOOOOOOOOOD MOVIE!!! haha and I just got back home not long ago!! So tired!! Going to hit the sheets once I've finished this post, gotta get some sleep for tomorrow is SEMI FINAL day and we're team 4 out of 8 on the ladder versing the TOP team yikes!! Seriously I hope we win because this is my very last and final season in juniors! argh!!! anyways it all ties in.. With God's strength we/I can do anything!!!!

I'll update on the tennis results tomorrow but for now I'm off to dream land :) Night all!

tchan.

Drops of... birthday surprise!

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

New project: Learn it on the PIANO :) hehe yay! such a cute song, I listened to the Boyce version as well but I think I'll stick to the Train version, I like his better for some odd reason. So learning piano and the geeee-tar :) fun fun :)

So pretty lonely day today. Was down in the LHC offices by myself.. that's the PE office haha. But it was a productive day and I got a whole heap done so I guess thats a pro/positive.

Cousins are down from Sydney today wooppeeee :) they're so gorgeous love them :):)
So they're down for my grandparents 50th anniversary!! That's heaps long!!

How's draw something going you say? Yeah good hahaa.. I think I'm playing to much and I think I should study but then I think.. wait no.. I don't have to study XD hehe win win win for Tabbs :)

Signing out for now but will update later tonight!!! Still a sick girl at the moment boo :( (n) not good at all but hopefully I'll get my voice back tomorrow!! Took a class today period 4 and made me lose my voice even more boo!! :(

Oh oh oh I did think of another positive, I got Kathy's 19th birthday present alreadyy hahaa badabing badaboom! XD XD cha ching hahaha its epic!! maybe I shouldnt say this on here coz she's probably reading this but oh well.. i wont tell no one what it is and she wont get it out of me XD tehe! It's seriously the awesomest awesomeness idea everrrrrr XD

teechan.

Long time no..type?

Yeah so I think I totally forgot about my blog.. oops, but I don't know decided to write again. Whether its detail or blunt.. we'll see how it all goes.

So.. frustrations:
-immediate family & their opinions and their inflexibility and understanding (including getting a car, youth work, work work)
-no car now even though im working fulltime!
-my emotions
-other people's immature behavior

Thankfulness or happy thoughts:
-cousins coming to melbourne tomorrow :)
-some of my maturer friends
-BRADLEY LIM (he's pretty amazing)
-having a job


I don't know life is pretty topsy turvy at the moment and currently and honestly I'm in this place where I love God and I know he's there we just don't have the strongest most full on relationship going round town, and to be honest when I look at it it's a good and bad thing. Good in that when it's FULL ON i tend to lose the consistency I have with God and I forget he's there. Bad because I feel like I need to have him closer to me or something along those lines... I'm just not sure, and it's a scary thing to admit.

So daily routine today
I'm sick. :( boo! Cold, cough, fever.. YAY! Went to the pools to see the sion girls off for swimming for an hour then went home and fell and I mean LITERALLY FELL into my bed.. oh the joys of being sick. Then went to visit bradlin and we chilled and watched chuck.. and modern family oh and icarly :) yay nickelodeon.. haha oh the childhood memories when I had foxtel.. well it was called optus tv something but same thing.

Headed off to the Gerrand's to drop miranda's things and stayed for a bit to watch jenny and miranda make cupcakes, quite entertaining actually and got good footage from it and made a 10 minute clip haha! fun times! Then headed home and been lazy on my but since playing draw something and making the video.. yes life's 'peaking'

Spirtitual walk:
Lately I've felt the devil attacking me, in a really weird way.. like making me sorta act in a bad way towards people. It sounds stupid and sounds ridiculous but I was sitting in the car today and something clicked, I can't really explain it nor do I feel 100% comfortable doing so, but lately I've been a little bitter, not infront of people's faces but more behind, but then I think, 'I don't care what people think of me' .. which to a large extent is true but it doesn't mean I have to be mean... hmm yeah thought of the day. are you really who you say you are?

I'm in a stage of sorryness and apologies. I think I've made like 3 big apology speeches this week to 3 different people about 3 different issues, whether it meant anything to them who knows??.. not me that's for sure. But only time will tell I guess, and I guess it's my fault for putting myself in this position.. who to blame but myself.. which is what I've been doing a lot lately.. Anyways off to finish off some of my draw something games!! CIAO!


HONESTY IS THE WAY TO GO :)

teechan.