A messy room

So anyone have a messy room? Yeah well I can answer to this.. yes I do.
My room is 95% of the time messy. There's so much stuff I keep and I know i everyday I spent 5 minutes just tidying a little after using stuff it would never get super messy, but sometimes or most of the time I get lazy and I just leave stuff there and leave it for the next day. But then tomorrow becomes another tomorrow and another tomorrow becomes another one!! And eventually after months of my floor being covered with my things I will take time to clean it because my mum or dad forces me to, except it takes a number of hours to do so!!!

This can very easily relate to our lives, a lot of the time we can put off God, we can think, oh I'm to tired today I think I'll talk to God tomorrow, and tomorrow becomes weeks. And sometimes we can put off God during our weeks and only look to him when we're at church or when we're going through a tough time. It can often seem like we want to take the easy way, do whatever we feel like now, chill, and just go with the flow and deal with consequences later but that is not at all what God has planned for us. He's wants us to here him now, listen to him, follow him, because his greater plan starts right now!!

So as I've written this I've decided I'm going to go clean my room ahaha and not become like this...

General days

Yeah well this is a average post from an average girl on an average bunch of days...
Hmm well yesterday such a lazy lazy day haha. So went to school first 2 periods.. psychology.. what did we do?... watch 50 first dates ahah woo!! looking at short term memory from last term woop fun fun hehehe :)
Then had health and I just did nothing. I hate health lol. it is the most dull and boring subject I have ever done!... you know sometimes I think in the way I have been doing at school I am really not going to get into the PE course I want to do.. although there are 3 I can get into.. I want to get into RMIT PE or Deakin PE but RMIT requires me to do 2 of PE, bio, physics, chem, methods or spesh.. but im only doing one of them which is PE.. and then Deakin their enter is 84 to get in.. or it normally has been around there.. if I get there wow it will be sooo lucky coz I doubt I'm going to get anything in the 80's but we'll see how I go.. but then there's vic uni in footscray which is alright and I guess after 1 year or half a year at which ever uni I get into I can always transfer.. although next year i want to take a year off. but i can tell my parents realllllyyyy dont want me to take a year off. BUt I guess we'll see what happens, see how my score goes. *sigh*
So yeahh wow i was talking about my day now talking about my future.. haha oh that reminds me, a friend of mine mateusz was telling me he thinks i'll get married next year.. yeah well NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!.. but it made me think, when will i actually get married. He then also said he thinks I'll at least be married by the time im 21.. okay YES i want to get married early.. but maybeeee not that early.. more like 23 or 24 when I'm actually out of uni.. hopefully landed a job by them!! HOPEFULLY!! lol
as I've been saying throughout this whole blog... I'll just see what happens lol.

So yeah continuing with how my day was yesterday, I had hockey last 2 periods of school and that was alright, got knocked over and grazed my knee, but not that bad and then I knocked over 2 chicks woops hahah :P oh well they were fine. So nothing special there, lost hockey :( Went home then I slept and went on facebook, had dinner, watched tv, went on fb, listened to music, yeah see, nothing special at all. boring old average day. *sigh*

Oh my, my tummy just grumbled lol.. i am hungryyyyyy for some foood, oh no's i just rememberd i forgot to pack my sliced peaches fruit tub :( noooo how saddening, they are really yummy as well. Oh I'm being healthy healthy today, for recess I have a pear lol, and lunch is salad with a little bit of chicken mmmm yummmehhhhhh hehhee :)

So yeah thats my day yesterday and a bit of insight on today.. oh about todayyy.. going to go opshopping with kathyyy geeeeeerrand :) woop and she's bringing jade wooooop :)
CANTT WAITTT HEHEHEHE :)

2 by 2

So recently I was looking and reflecting on Noah's ark story and how he sent the animals our 2 by 2 and then it made me think how we were made in this world for relationship. Our God is a relational God. And the whole 2 by 2 thing got to me and it was all too much. Every one in my life it seems has someone, another person a pair, a 'best friend' you could say.
Sometimes like I've got to be honest I wish I had that consistent one person who has been there forever.. you know you hear about friendships which have been around since they were like 5 and now they're still best friends and such. Then I realised and it clicked in my head, why should I be worrying and fearing and getting all like this, when I have been blessed by so many amazing friends whom I love very much, many, yet a small bunch of close friends who I can trust entirely with my life, which I feel blessed when I am around, and I am so thankful for that.

Anyways just my tiny little thought bubble from this tiny little girl here hehe :P

Oh for those who read this, I have a prayer point/request. So just about 30 minutes ago I was sitting with my grandama (mum's mum - who can't speak english therefore I can barely speak to her) and my mum and we were watching a dvd about chinese being Christian's and stuff. Anyways my grandma was saying how my uncle is so superstitious about Buddhism, because my family back in Singapore are all Buddhist :( My grandma has become more open as my mum has slowly talked to her and stuff where else some of my uncles and aunties back in Singapore are just crazy about Buddhism, so we were taking about it and it just saddened me and I began to tear but wiped it away before mum and my grandma could see. So yeah pray for my family in Singapore, specifically my grandma and my mums younger brother and sister who are both very superstitious about Buddhism.

Nights :)
- tabbs

Holy Spirited weekend!

Yeah I probably should blog more that's totally my bad lol. I like blogging just dont find enough time for it.. anyways. I don't really know what to talk about. I mean I feel like I should talk about my awesome and amazing weekend but that would take ages to explain, or maybe I should talk about my 3 hours of the day Ive spent lol.

maybe i'll brief you on the weekend.
so friday night - youth - amazing night, and im not being vein, because i spoke, but it was coz I love youth, it really is the highlight of my week, you know after a week full of about 7 sacs this was what i needed, Anyways I spoke today for the junior youth on how and why we can read the bible and pray, it went really well, or so people told me, but i really felt God speaking through me. I mean a lot of what I said on that night I had not specifically thought of or right about, a lot was instinct and what just came to me, and i really believe that, that was God :):) its so awesome the way he works.

So went home friday night and slept late haha, and woke up late getting a good 12 hours sleep :) so went to work saturday came home packed some stuff tidied my room went to sleep, nothing great or awesome there!

So sunday is the big day haha, so took my cousin out to vic market and the city and that was a whole lot of fun :):) and then went to youth, where we looked on the holy spirit and just prayed for the holy spirit to fill us, and it really did fill me, i felt so energised and on fire. praying for friends and myself it was just an amazin feeling i cannot explain how jumpy crazy and alive I felt in and through God!!!!

So went off home after church except then dad came and picked me up from home to go to a family friends house :):) fun fun, she's the ex kids pastor at ecc and shes just an amazing woman of God :):)

And now I get to today :) woke up and first thing i did, checked my phone NADAL won WOOP WOOP hehehehhee :)! and then after checking i pretty much went back and curled in my bed till dad came knocking in trying to wake me up.. lol == finally got out of bed and changed at lik 7:40 and left the house by 8am. Assembly at school, oh fun! lol nah it was okay lol. assemblies just go on for a while. Anyways Im not in english talking about some film called Persepolis and making mindmaps and etc.. i dont know, i should probably be listening but im too caught up in the way God has worked in my life this weekend, its amazing and awesome, and i have so so so so much energy for the week ahead, here comes a week full of getting ready for exams and getting ready for SYG!!!! WOOP WOOP!!

ciao :)
- tabbs

A letter to God

Dear God,
Today I am turning everything over to you. I am not going to hold on to anything anymore. Your word says that you will make me your masterpiece and use me to do great things...I don't see how that's possible but I want that with all that I am. So please do whatever it takes to make me what you want!
I love you God!

I think about the number of times i have a 'turning point' in life to do with my Christian walk, and I couldn't count them for you, but camp after camp after camp i come home feeling revived from God but soon fall short of my faith and begin living the way I used to, I don't think it takes a camp to change someone, well it may happen from or after a camp but I think it is due to conviction. God the Holy Spirit convicts you, changes your heart's tone and feelings, changes your thoughts, changes your view. It's an amazing feeling, but not the WOW BAM! amazing but simply the amazing feeling. It's hard to explain.

For me I know many times I feel like my life is 'changed' it 'renewed' but many and most of those times those 'times' dont last for more than a week, and I will never be perfect, there will be times I sin and disobey God, but you can only learn, you continue to rely on God who is picking you up from the dusty ground, dusting you off and preparing you for life's journey. Sometimes we just need a little faith...'as small as a mustard seed'


You know something else on my mind recently is God actually speaking to us, how does he and is it really God. I think that in situations we can mistaken our own wants and desires for Gods voice, our own desires effect the way we listen to God or hear him. A lot of the time people say God said this, God told me that, God gave me this love, God gave me this feelings, this peace, this grace, but often we can accidentally think of our own peace love and grace and use God's name. We have to be extremely cautious about the way we go about putting God's name to things. I know I have gone through cases where people tell me what God told them but it was absolutely wrong, but I don't have the guts to approach them to tel them they are wrong, it is something I have figured that people alone (with God) need to figure out and realise for themselves that, that certain voice may not actually be God. People get involved with things, do things, act on things, say things because they say God told them to, when God didn't want that in the first place.
Just a thought..

Anyways it's late, dream land for me now :)
nights :)
- tabbs

God's Boxes

I have in my hands 2 boxes which God gave me to hold.
He said "Put all your sorrows in the black box and all your joys in the gold."
I heeded his words, and in the 2 boxes, both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day the black was as light as before
With curiosity, I opened the black, I wanted to find out why,
And I saw in the base of the box, a hole, which my sorrows had fallen out by.
I showed the hole to God and mused, "I wonder where my sorrows could be!"
He smiled a gentle smile and said, "My child they're all here with me..."
I asked God, why He gave me the boxes, Why the gold and black with a hole?
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings, the black is for you to let go!"

This is such a lovely poem thingy :):)
It just warms my heart when I read it, to know that God puts himself with us so we can get rid of and blow away our sorrows, stresses and dangers of life. I'm beginning to learn when you give it all up to God he provides you with the answers, count your blessings because if you are reading this now you have GOT to be incredibly blessed. God creates us to be blessed by him and to bless others through him!! Go out and do that remember the blessings God continually blesses us with and forget the sorrows as they will only bring us down!

im sick :(

yeahh first of all.. long time no post..really long time, just been so busy with sacs tests, and holidays i was out prettyyy much everyday and when i wasnt out i was wanting to go out ahahhaa, good one tabb. and as usual left homework to the last minute
anyways im at home, its evening, waiting for lasagne to cook in the oven :) but sitting here with a nAAAsty sore throat :( its poo i hate it, ive lost my voice and i have no idea how, i feel perfectly fine otherwise LOL

you know sometimes and today i was thinking about being an example, and i gotta admit, i am not the best example to others, but then again who is?.. its something im working on.. depending on the environment im in i tend to change my behaviour not for the onlookers and people around me but for self worth and comfort and feeling secure in myself, but if i have to change myself to feel happy about myself, if i actually look in deep into my heart im really not that happy at all...
i think i underestimate how much i am looked up to by younger kids, i realised this when i heard my sister argueing with my mum, she sounded just like me when i was her age, i felt so sad when i realised that this is how i used to be. for those who have younger siblings, you must realise how much of an influence and role model we are to our younger sibling, it actually makes a huge difference in the way they grow up, ive realised this and the way i act at home now is very different and now just trying to spread that throughout my whole life.


Something else that has been on my mind lately is decision making, you know in year 12 especially this year tehre are so many decisions to make, especially with what to do next year, what i want to do, what God wants me to do what my parents expect of me. I know what I want to do but I don't know what God wants me to do, I have a dream and a plan but until this year i had not considered God's own dream, plan and purpose for me. All the time people ask how is year 12 going.. la di da di da, when in theyre mind theyre actually asking hows it al going, hows the stress, what do yiou wana do with your life, and only a few times have i actually thought about those decisions..

another side to decision making is that a lot of decisions we make on a daily basis affect others, it has an impact on others, if one day i was at work and decided to chill out when it was busy it would affect the other people around me, theyd have to work heaps harder to fill in for my lacking!
Sometimes we make decisions which can be extremely selfish but we need to take into consideration that the world does not revolve around us, the world is not all about us but about others and God, and sometimes when it comes to decision making, we need to think how this is going to impact others. We need to make decisions which glorify and please God!! :)

- tabbs!

Microwaves and Jesus..

You know something else that was and is on my mind was and is microwaves... random yea.. lol well anyways I was reheating some food in the common room today and I was thinking, imagine if the microwave wasnt here and it didnt exist.. I wouldnt be able to have noodles for lunch :(
Anyways I somehow linked it to God.. yeah funny huh? ahaa, well anyways I linked it like this...

So as teenagers 17, 18 we didn't really know a life without microwaves, well at least we can't remember, and so we take the fact that we can heat up food in 30 seconds for granted, I mean think about how you would've had to warm up milk or warm up a hot chocolate in the past.. it would take much longer then whipping it in the microwave for a minute.. So in this way God sent Jesus down on earth and removed the sin away from our lives and whenever we want we can instantly contact God and talk to him. We never knew a life where we couldn't do that Jesus died on the cross before we were born. But imagine back in the day before Jesus died on the cross, before jesus was born, people had to give sacrifices and all sorts to make themselves pure before the Lord.

You see that's why we mustn't take the grace Jesus has offered us for granted. After Jesus died on the cross the way of worship was changed, and we can only read about that we will never have to experience that.

May we never take God's sacrificial love for granted but live in the fullness of life God has given us!!

Our God

Our God is greater, Our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other, Our God is healer, Awesome in power, Our God, Our God.

Sometimes life stops us in our paths, crap happens, people do things to hurt you, people say stuff that break you into pieces, sometimes you do and say things which later on you think about and totally regret. Sometimes those times, pull us away from God, sometimes they bring us back again. Sometimes all we need is a talk with God or a friend to get us back in the spirit, and sometimes its forever longing. This list goes on about the 'times' we have.

What 'time' are you in?? Do you seek God in all 'times'?

Lately things have been getting rough, and to admit its so easy to put a happy bubbly crazy face on when you're around people but what happens when you're alone, what happens when its just you by yourself, when its just you and God?

A lot of the time I find when I'm upset, angry, tired, frustrated or negative I'll call up a best friend and start unloading on them, but really I should be calling to God first. And I think every time I've done that I've felt a better peace inside of me. So why don't I do that all of the time?

Well as a human being we all have different personalities and different ways of dealing with different situations. For me, I am a people person, I bounce of others, I find happiness in the company of others, and so when I am sad I often turn to others. So its easy for me to call up my friend and ask for a listening ear or a helping hand, its so easy to give them a call. But isn't it easier to call upon God?

For some, you may know that its so easy to talk to God just like that, and for others like me we struggle even though we know God is right there.

God, sometimes we get caught up it day to day life, things get us down, but let us not forget that you are there, watching over us, sitting, standing next to us, and we can call upon you whenever we want and you will answer, we don't need to pull out a phone and text or call you for your help, all we really even have to do is talk to you through the spirit.
Amen.

A good will or a hidden purpose?

Let your spirit make me new, and I will fall at your feet, and I will fall at your feet, and worship you here.

Where ever we are in our day we can stop and just talk to God he is always beside us in our every day lives, he is walking with us wherever we go.

In him and through him we can do great things. With the Holy Spirit we are urged to do and act on certain thoughts and actions which may begin as a thought but grow to be so much more.

Just the other day I was going through some athletics day pictures from school athletics and I saw one of me and one of the teacher/teachers, quite a funny shot!! And I decided just as a nice gesture to send it to her as these were pictures from a personal camera so they weren't anywhere for the rest of the school to see. So I decided to send it just out of pure joy the picture displays.

I got an email back about 2 hours later but didn't actually read it till about 11pm that night. Summing it up it briefly said
'Thank you for sending me the pictures, I've been having a tough day and it was good to be reminded of the students I love and why I have the best job in the world'
And I must say that touched my heart.
To think by simply emailing someone and receiving an email in return with that kind of depth touches me, and I guess in that way I touched her by sending her the email. I guess in that way God does look after us, in such a simple way as this. God will return you the favor when you least expect it, and when he knows you need it most. That evening I too was having it tough and to get that email just softened a part of me, God used what I did as a nice gesture expecting nothing in return to become something so great for myself.

Do something for someone today and expect nothing back, you may never get a thank you back for doing that good deed but do it because you get joy out of it. If you have the mind set of 'oh I'm going to do this because God is going to reward me, that is giving your action an ungodly purpose' God sees right into the deepest part of your heart, (no not your arteries in your heart) but your soul, your every thought and feeling. He knows, so do an act of love just out of love, just because you can, the greatest gift and reward has already been given to us from God, sending his son down to die as a sacrifice.

What is the purpose of your actions today?

to quick to conclusions...

so today I got dropped off around tunstall square and so i took a bus to get home, got off at jackson court and decided to go to the newsagents to get a small diary planner thing which i can keep in my pocket. So got into the newsagents and then got the diary and waited to pay for it. While I was waiting the guy behind the counter serving this other woman seemed a bit 'dangerous' you could say the word is.. not really but you know those kind of people who you look at and listen to and they just seem a bit eeeek. like the kind of people you want to stay away from. Anyways he was talking to the lady infront of me about smoking, so she was buying some sort of light cigarette coz she was trying to quit and he was like talking to her about cigarette's and wishing her good luck in quitting as she left. I immediately thought 'if you're wishing her good luck then dont sell the stupid cigarette's to her.. duhh!!! thats just stupid'
So anyways put the diary down on the counter and paid for it, just as I was walking away he was like, 'Donvale Christian College... blue jumper you must be in year 12?' I responded with a 'yes, how did you know?'
He told me his daughter who was in year 8 went to donvale, I asked him what her name was he said 'Nicole Mercandel' the surname sounded familiar in my head but I said, sorry not sure who she is. He then went on and said 'I used to have another child that went there but he died the other year, Mark Mercandel' That immediately shocked me and my heart stopped for one second, and i was like.. WHAT!!?? in my head and I just was like 'Oh, im so sorry for your loss' He then went on and said see I have a picture here, and he showed me a picture of Mark on the counter of the newsagents.

We continued in small talk for a little bit before I left. I left with my heart feeling guilty of judging a man who had lost everything, his own son. It made me think everyday we judge people who are God's sons and daughter. I make the mistake every day and im definitely guilty, but I know and am trying to change that :)

Justin Bieber & God's calling

Many people criticise him because he started singing when he was like 12 and his voice hadn't broken, and yes I admit I did and do from time to time tease him. I mean I don't know who he is and what he's like so what I say is probably not true. I don't know him on a personal level so what I say don't take into account. Okay yes, I admit, his voice when he was younger was annoying and girlyish.. and sometimes still is, but I have to also admit, his songs are pretty catchy, and some meaningful, one in particular called 'Pray'

I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
For the broken-hearted.
I pray for the life not started
I pray for all the ones not breathing.
I pray for all the souls in need.
I pray. Can you give em one today.
I just cant sleep tonight
Can someone tell how to make a change?

This part of his song is quite touching I must admit, it's true though, how can we sleep in our comfy bed on a cold day with the heater on or on a cool day with the air con running when there are people on the other side of the world dieing because they don't get enough water or food.

I mean I take things for granted all the time, being able to see the doctor and all and getting water and food. But lets not get it wrong, it doesnt mean when you're sick you shouldnt see a doctor because there are poorer people who cant afford it and we all have to fair and equal. If you're sick, go to the doctors, if you're unwell buy cough medicine, but the simplest of things we can do for those we cannot reach is pray, if God hints us to give to a charity organisation then do so, follow what God is calling you to do. Keep those less fortunate in mind dont forget them as they too are one of God's precious children.

We all have a part and calling to the world and God calls us to serve and worship him and he will tell us in the specific ways he wants us to serve. So the other night I was on the way to a BBQ with a friend who i dont talk to heaps but shes a couple years older than me and we grew up together.. anyways, as I do with a lot of people now a days, we were talking about the future, what i want to do after year 12. And i was telling her about the different options and in particular I was talking to her about the possibility of God calling me to be a childrens/youth pastor. I was telling her it wasnt something I was holding onto, but just a possibility that had been suggested by people and confirmed with one or 2 others. I was saying that if God wanted me to head into that direction he would make it 100% clear.

So my friend and I kept talking about that and we got onto what God calls us to do, specifically speaking. And she told me this story;

There was man, who was a pastor during his life and he had died and went into heaven and he was infront of God, God said so you were called to be an accountant, the man replied and said but i was a pastor you know i served you in this way. God then said, I called you to be an accountant but instead you were a pastor, i am not saying you did the wrong thing, but you did not listen to me and so I gave your job to someone else to do the job for me.

God calls us to certain things, he gives us a choice to listen to him or go our own way, and so I guess with me having an idea of career choices such as, psychologist, chiro, PE teacher, youth worker, primary school teacher, counsellor and a couple more careers, I need to be open to what God wants me to do. Yes I may have the strive to really really want to become a PE teacher or youth pastor, but I have to be careful, what I think or feel is right is actually what GOD has instore for me. Yes, go follow and pursue your dreams, but are you ready for what God has instore for you? Are you ready to follow God whole heartedly, change your life around all for just him??

I am!! are you??

- tabb.

i promise..

You know something I read, was about promises, we make promises every day in life and you know that ‘our character is forged by the promises we make and keep’ some times in life we make promises we can’t keep, but the promises we make define who we are. If we can’t keep promises then why make them. That’s something I’m working on, following through with my promises!!

Promises are made to be kept.. not broken. A very common promise which no a days is being made and easily broken is the well known...

'I promise to take this man as my lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer...'

every day weddings occur, everyday divorces are signed.. sad when you think about.. including the fact there are people out there getting married overnight and not realising they were married till a while after because they were too drunk to take notice. It is purely ridiculous I must say.

So think carefully about the promises you make.

- tabbs.

the book and its cover.

sooooo a new day.. gone not so good.
back hurts like crazy.. and this morning i woke up and could barely put my socks on properly. it just cains and cains..
so anyways 7:30 start had my psychology test.. eh it was okay,. i could barely study last night due to my back being sore.. so got to school 7:30 (yuck to that) then i had homeroom lalalalala and then maths, i lasted about 30-40 minutes in maths before i had to go up to the nurse, got a heat pack and just laid up there... i was suppose to be there for lik 30 minutes max but ended up there till 10:30..recess.. oops.. i guess i'll just catch up on maths during the long weekend.. and i guess there wont be as many distractions ahaha..
sooooooo... period 3 and 4 was like nothing PE.. did not do anything at all ahah. then had a free.. played ZOOMBINIS hehehehehhehe :) google it if you have no idea what it is lol. so anywayss.. lunch was good.. for some reason migoreng made me go spastic and im sitting here in the 6th period.. not listening to what the teacher has to say.. but instead typing this.. its not like if i was listening that anything would go through into my head LOL.


People always say.. don't judge a book by its cover..
yeahh well you know its way easier said than done.. truueee fact there.. we are always always quick to judge and yes, i am very guilty of that i do it all the time.. even when i dont say it aloud.. the thoughts go through my heaad
'yuck what is she wearing' 'who does she think she is' etc and etc.
i dont mean to its just i think that.. but we can always work on that.. work on cleaning our minds for God. I mean im sure we've all been judged before. Funny that this topic I'm talking about coz in the english book we're studying this term twelve angry men it talks about prejudices and you know judgementalism and stuff.. i just did a whole oral sac on that ahaaha.
we cloud our views with prejudgemental thoughts our personal prejudices get in the way of all sorts!!! It's bad I know but if we pray for help and guidance anything and i mean ANYTHING can be done through God. I hate reading.. yes i admit that.. never really been into books at all.. and when im in a book store or something if a book doesnt look appealing to me then i wont pick it up and give it a second look.. but like my mum always tells me.. you never know what you're going to find..

just a thought.

- tabb.

okay...

well maybe I fail at posting all the time..
trust me I do try ahahaa.
anywaysss.. uhmmmmmmmm i duno i had something to type or say but now I cant remember. oh well. my devotion today was really good :):)
i purely enjoyed it and totally clicked with life!! :)

so pretty much I can be really impatient sometimes, but depending on the situation of course, at times im peaceful and i could wait forever but there are just something which i am so incredibly impatient about.. and goodness I really cut myself up about it sometimes.
You know people pray sometimes for years and years and years and decades even and they have the patience to wait and God has a plan and when he reveals his plan all the waiting was worth it, but sometimes God doesn't reveal his plan so obviously.

'I need to trust that God knows the correct times for things to happen and, although I am impatient, I need to have faith that He knows what time is best for me.'

That's the quote of today.

Something else is I think God works in miraculous ways, little signs and hints he drops to you about things in life, its pretty cool, its like he's leaving you little post it notes around the house for you like your mum, dad, sibling or spouse would.
Its quite cute when you think of it in that way hahaa.


Well anyways today was an interesting day, so got to school, eye puffed from my sty and then chucked the few books I had in my locker, had psych and all we talked about was sleep.. and oh my goodness it was putting me to sleep, not much of a story to tell. recess however was fun fun fun, hence it was mels bday we had a cake a yummy choclate cake which kirralee kindly baked :):) was shared nicely in the room ahha.
Uhm next up was health, i really really dont like health, but todays classes was better than normal lol.. coz we looked at vitamins and stuff which is quite interesting, like looking at what helps your body be at its best.
So then after class got my stuff and was ready to go, coz i finished school early.. uhm i was talking to miranda today just before i left and i just teared, things so deep to me. its funny yet annoying how im so emotional... oh wells. just all in a day. got home had a tasty pie nom nom nom ahahaa.. then studied and still studying with a couple of breaks now and then.

<3 - my heart races every day, it pounds faster and faster, i'll never truly understand the real language of love, but I can only try and try, and if God is in the middle of it all, the friendship can on blossom and blossom

so i duno, God was in my day today :)
Got to love God :)

the beginning

so.. ive decided, why not.. year 12.. something to remember yeahh!? i think so..
so people say its the best year of school... THE FINAL YEAR.. they up talk about how awesome it is.. yet i dont feel any different, i dont feel any better i feel worse to be honest!.. but i mean its been 2 weeks..
but then.. wow sudden change around.. today..its been totally different, the suns shining the days beautiful and ive havent been this happy since a long time!!!...i think it's got to do with giving the day to God, today was the first time in a little while I gave it all up to God..

I'm going by this today: No matter how insignificant you feel that you are, God is not limited by you insecurities or world insignificance. God can use you in a mighty way.

I may be small but I'm pretty sure you've all heard my loud voice.. haha coming from a small girl like me you'd never think so.

I'm putting God number one, and he's never coming down.


Lord use me for what you want, guide me into the right direction and towards the right path, Lord use me as your disciple for Lord I am following you forever more!! Thank you for this beautiful day and I pray you bless the rest of it to come!!
Amen :)

Ciao kids :)