A letter to God

Dear God,
Today I am turning everything over to you. I am not going to hold on to anything anymore. Your word says that you will make me your masterpiece and use me to do great things...I don't see how that's possible but I want that with all that I am. So please do whatever it takes to make me what you want!
I love you God!

I think about the number of times i have a 'turning point' in life to do with my Christian walk, and I couldn't count them for you, but camp after camp after camp i come home feeling revived from God but soon fall short of my faith and begin living the way I used to, I don't think it takes a camp to change someone, well it may happen from or after a camp but I think it is due to conviction. God the Holy Spirit convicts you, changes your heart's tone and feelings, changes your thoughts, changes your view. It's an amazing feeling, but not the WOW BAM! amazing but simply the amazing feeling. It's hard to explain.

For me I know many times I feel like my life is 'changed' it 'renewed' but many and most of those times those 'times' dont last for more than a week, and I will never be perfect, there will be times I sin and disobey God, but you can only learn, you continue to rely on God who is picking you up from the dusty ground, dusting you off and preparing you for life's journey. Sometimes we just need a little faith...'as small as a mustard seed'


You know something else on my mind recently is God actually speaking to us, how does he and is it really God. I think that in situations we can mistaken our own wants and desires for Gods voice, our own desires effect the way we listen to God or hear him. A lot of the time people say God said this, God told me that, God gave me this love, God gave me this feelings, this peace, this grace, but often we can accidentally think of our own peace love and grace and use God's name. We have to be extremely cautious about the way we go about putting God's name to things. I know I have gone through cases where people tell me what God told them but it was absolutely wrong, but I don't have the guts to approach them to tel them they are wrong, it is something I have figured that people alone (with God) need to figure out and realise for themselves that, that certain voice may not actually be God. People get involved with things, do things, act on things, say things because they say God told them to, when God didn't want that in the first place.
Just a thought..

Anyways it's late, dream land for me now :)
nights :)
- tabbs