Dear God,
Today I am turning everything over to you. I am not going to hold on to anything anymore. Your word says that you will make me your masterpiece and use me to do great things...I don't see how that's possible but I want that with all that I am. So please do whatever it takes to make me what you want!
I love you God!
I think about the number of times i have a 'turning point' in life to do with my Christian walk, and I couldn't count them for you, but camp after camp after camp i come home feeling revived from God but soon fall short of my faith and begin living the way I used to, I don't think it takes a camp to change someone, well it may happen from or after a camp but I think it is due to conviction. God the Holy Spirit convicts you, changes your heart's tone and feelings, changes your thoughts, changes your view. It's an amazing feeling, but not the WOW BAM! amazing but simply the amazing feeling. It's hard to explain.
For me I know many times I feel like my life is 'changed' it 'renewed' but many and most of those times those 'times' dont last for more than a week, and I will never be perfect, there will be times I sin and disobey God, but you can only learn, you continue to rely on God who is picking you up from the dusty ground, dusting you off and preparing you for life's journey. Sometimes we just need a little faith...'as small as a mustard seed'
You know something else on my mind recently is God actually speaking to us, how does he and is it really God. I think that in situations we can mistaken our own wants and desires for Gods voice, our own desires effect the way we listen to God or hear him. A lot of the time people say God said this, God told me that, God gave me this love, God gave me this feelings, this peace, this grace, but often we can accidentally think of our own peace love and grace and use God's name. We have to be extremely cautious about the way we go about putting God's name to things. I know I have gone through cases where people tell me what God told them but it was absolutely wrong, but I don't have the guts to approach them to tel them they are wrong, it is something I have figured that people alone (with God) need to figure out and realise for themselves that, that certain voice may not actually be God. People get involved with things, do things, act on things, say things because they say God told them to, when God didn't want that in the first place.
Just a thought..
Anyways it's late, dream land for me now :)
nights :)
- tabbs
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
God's Boxes
I have in my hands 2 boxes which God gave me to hold.
He said "Put all your sorrows in the black box and all your joys in the gold."
I heeded his words, and in the 2 boxes, both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day the black was as light as before
With curiosity, I opened the black, I wanted to find out why,
And I saw in the base of the box, a hole, which my sorrows had fallen out by.
I showed the hole to God and mused, "I wonder where my sorrows could be!"
He smiled a gentle smile and said, "My child they're all here with me..."
I asked God, why He gave me the boxes, Why the gold and black with a hole?
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings, the black is for you to let go!"
This is such a lovely poem thingy :):)
It just warms my heart when I read it, to know that God puts himself with us so we can get rid of and blow away our sorrows, stresses and dangers of life. I'm beginning to learn when you give it all up to God he provides you with the answers, count your blessings because if you are reading this now you have GOT to be incredibly blessed. God creates us to be blessed by him and to bless others through him!! Go out and do that remember the blessings God continually blesses us with and forget the sorrows as they will only bring us down!
He said "Put all your sorrows in the black box and all your joys in the gold."
I heeded his words, and in the 2 boxes, both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day the black was as light as before
With curiosity, I opened the black, I wanted to find out why,
And I saw in the base of the box, a hole, which my sorrows had fallen out by.
I showed the hole to God and mused, "I wonder where my sorrows could be!"
He smiled a gentle smile and said, "My child they're all here with me..."
I asked God, why He gave me the boxes, Why the gold and black with a hole?
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings, the black is for you to let go!"
This is such a lovely poem thingy :):)
It just warms my heart when I read it, to know that God puts himself with us so we can get rid of and blow away our sorrows, stresses and dangers of life. I'm beginning to learn when you give it all up to God he provides you with the answers, count your blessings because if you are reading this now you have GOT to be incredibly blessed. God creates us to be blessed by him and to bless others through him!! Go out and do that remember the blessings God continually blesses us with and forget the sorrows as they will only bring us down!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
im sick :(
yeahh first of all.. long time no post..really long time, just been so busy with sacs tests, and holidays i was out prettyyy much everyday and when i wasnt out i was wanting to go out ahahhaa, good one tabb. and as usual left homework to the last minute
anyways im at home, its evening, waiting for lasagne to cook in the oven :) but sitting here with a nAAAsty sore throat :( its poo i hate it, ive lost my voice and i have no idea how, i feel perfectly fine otherwise LOL
you know sometimes and today i was thinking about being an example, and i gotta admit, i am not the best example to others, but then again who is?.. its something im working on.. depending on the environment im in i tend to change my behaviour not for the onlookers and people around me but for self worth and comfort and feeling secure in myself, but if i have to change myself to feel happy about myself, if i actually look in deep into my heart im really not that happy at all...
i think i underestimate how much i am looked up to by younger kids, i realised this when i heard my sister argueing with my mum, she sounded just like me when i was her age, i felt so sad when i realised that this is how i used to be. for those who have younger siblings, you must realise how much of an influence and role model we are to our younger sibling, it actually makes a huge difference in the way they grow up, ive realised this and the way i act at home now is very different and now just trying to spread that throughout my whole life.
Something else that has been on my mind lately is decision making, you know in year 12 especially this year tehre are so many decisions to make, especially with what to do next year, what i want to do, what God wants me to do what my parents expect of me. I know what I want to do but I don't know what God wants me to do, I have a dream and a plan but until this year i had not considered God's own dream, plan and purpose for me. All the time people ask how is year 12 going.. la di da di da, when in theyre mind theyre actually asking hows it al going, hows the stress, what do yiou wana do with your life, and only a few times have i actually thought about those decisions..
another side to decision making is that a lot of decisions we make on a daily basis affect others, it has an impact on others, if one day i was at work and decided to chill out when it was busy it would affect the other people around me, theyd have to work heaps harder to fill in for my lacking!
Sometimes we make decisions which can be extremely selfish but we need to take into consideration that the world does not revolve around us, the world is not all about us but about others and God, and sometimes when it comes to decision making, we need to think how this is going to impact others. We need to make decisions which glorify and please God!! :)
- tabbs!
anyways im at home, its evening, waiting for lasagne to cook in the oven :) but sitting here with a nAAAsty sore throat :( its poo i hate it, ive lost my voice and i have no idea how, i feel perfectly fine otherwise LOL
you know sometimes and today i was thinking about being an example, and i gotta admit, i am not the best example to others, but then again who is?.. its something im working on.. depending on the environment im in i tend to change my behaviour not for the onlookers and people around me but for self worth and comfort and feeling secure in myself, but if i have to change myself to feel happy about myself, if i actually look in deep into my heart im really not that happy at all...
i think i underestimate how much i am looked up to by younger kids, i realised this when i heard my sister argueing with my mum, she sounded just like me when i was her age, i felt so sad when i realised that this is how i used to be. for those who have younger siblings, you must realise how much of an influence and role model we are to our younger sibling, it actually makes a huge difference in the way they grow up, ive realised this and the way i act at home now is very different and now just trying to spread that throughout my whole life.
Something else that has been on my mind lately is decision making, you know in year 12 especially this year tehre are so many decisions to make, especially with what to do next year, what i want to do, what God wants me to do what my parents expect of me. I know what I want to do but I don't know what God wants me to do, I have a dream and a plan but until this year i had not considered God's own dream, plan and purpose for me. All the time people ask how is year 12 going.. la di da di da, when in theyre mind theyre actually asking hows it al going, hows the stress, what do yiou wana do with your life, and only a few times have i actually thought about those decisions..
another side to decision making is that a lot of decisions we make on a daily basis affect others, it has an impact on others, if one day i was at work and decided to chill out when it was busy it would affect the other people around me, theyd have to work heaps harder to fill in for my lacking!
Sometimes we make decisions which can be extremely selfish but we need to take into consideration that the world does not revolve around us, the world is not all about us but about others and God, and sometimes when it comes to decision making, we need to think how this is going to impact others. We need to make decisions which glorify and please God!! :)
- tabbs!
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)